A Man

What man is a man who does not make the world better.

Saturday, March 24, 2007

Michelle Part 2

We met yesterday. I'm happy but I just realized something new about her. I realized that she became someone else, she's not the little Michelle I know anymore. Yes, I know that change is the only permanent thing in this world and I'm very happy that she trusts me to know her more. I may not know her that much right now or whatever but I'm willing to take this chance to know her better. Well, I'm not thinking about anything related to relationship right now but the real plan is to help her change. Well, not really change but to help her grow more to become a better, stronger person. Yes, that's the exact same reason almost a year ago when someone came back from my past.

Deja vu?

I don't know.

Whether it is a test or chance for me now then I'll gladly take it.

I want to help her and I must admit that I like her.

If ever that she might be reading this then so be it, at least she know now what I'm thinking about her.

Wait, yes I did tell her 2 years ago that I like her. I hope she remembers it.

Plus, I learned something new again yesterday when we talked about our stuffs and silly me, now there are two girls in my life that will always prove wrong about them. Women.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

Lies

"An artist use lies to tell the truth while the politician use lies to tell the truth."

-V, Evey's father.V for Vendetta.

Its been months since I first saw V for Vendetta and I'm still wondering why does the original DVD copy of that movie hasn't lower its price yet. Well, perhaps of its theme, political tyranny and err... political activism? For me, V is another symbol for freedom, courage, vengeance, test, tricks, lies and random insanity. Just like Rizal, he was inspire by the Count of Monte Cristo and guess what? When I started bombing, please do blame El Fili and Noli. Oh yeah of course V for Vendetta.

Looks like I went too far from my topic? What's my topic in the first place? Oh yeah, about the lies that could tell the truth. That's quite true for me, I usually use my stories to tell someone the truth like for example, I use this certain story to tell a girl that I grew in love with her. I hope she's reading that story to get my message.

Well another thing about my stories (written stories) they were all based on someone's life, I mean, like if I use your name at a certain story that I'm currently working on, then it must have something to do with you or must have something to tell you. Or maybe, I'm just trying to tell you something stupid that I know you wouldn't want to hear but I really want to tell you. But whatever it is, my English still sucks.

Michelle

I don't know what to write here and honestly my English still sucks too. I don't know how should I feel whenever we talked about these random stuffs about relationship specially about the illegality issues of some (most likely girls) who doesn't inform their parents they're having a relationship with their bestfriend err, nevermind.

She's been a close friend to me since we were little and besides, she led our elite team of cleaners way back when we were 10 and we got so close to each other that I often walk her to her fetch. Now she's back, well we've been schoolmates in highschool but never been classmates and when I decided to leave that freaking school of ours, I lost contact with her. We haven't talked to each other since we graduated in elementary and I left the school when I was in third year so there's no actual contact between us. I really like her back then and to tell you the truth (whoever you are reading this silly entry) I tried to court her but I was too slow to win her heart or I'm still a baby roughly 4 years ago.

2 years ago I regained my contact with her and started texting her with no intentions of courting her, (believe me.) and poof, few months later she's gone again. I think her mother dear confiscated her phone, I dunno why but I have this idea that it has something to do with her lovelife. Duh.

Then again, several month after Chie and I broke up, she came back and God really loves me to send her back into my life to have another reason to smile or he's just testing me whether I'll go for her or wait for Chie. And now, here we are againg trying to build a good communication between us and I'm quite happy that whenever she has a load, she'll text me.

Well, I'm hoping for the best but expecting the worst.